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Promise to allah

Assalamu alaikum I care something too much and so that I abstained from using lot of things and avoiding something which I really like due to the fear that which may be impure.but sometimes after a lot of reasearches in the internet I get the answer of permissivility of the usage (everything is pure unless it is certain,thing i use is most probably a pure one and the like) Once I said ” Others are don’t care about this but still by mere doubt I even doing these much oh allah (an act which I had never did at that time but intented to do ). so that allah forgive me ” I never uttered detaily about the act I just said “these much” by mentioning the act in my heart I never intended to make a binding promise in between me and allah but I said this with the intention to do it will it count as a promise ? If it counts as promise should I fulfill it in my whole life or once is enough ? Do I’m punished for each time I broke the promise or the promise dissolves in the first time I broken it . If after broking the promise is I’m free from the Binding with Allah by that promise Or will I be sinfull each day I broke it ? Please advice me .it will be great help for me May allah bless you and your beloved ones