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I know Allah Is sad on my doing I love Allah very much and I really want him in my future

Q:

Asslamualaikum warahmatulla wabarakatuhu! 2 year back I met a boy in college we were the only two of same caste and we bonded I never talked to boys but there was our bond friendship later he started loving me and I love him too but after this he started touching me it felt good but I know it is wrong and tried to ignore and started telling about our Deen as it is forbidden he started listening but once we were alone one thing lead to another we kissed he touched my body it felt good but very wrong im lowered in my eyes and each time I promise Allah I will not do it again I again and again do it and I really love him want to marry but we have to complete our education and earn money so that he can tell his parents but whenever we are alone we kiss and do little things as we are in same college we have projects and mostly all projects with him im really strayed I have no way to come back and I know Allah will Is sad on my doing I love Allah very much and I really want him in my future plz help me guide me ?

A:

Alaikum Salam Wa Rahmatullah Sister.

Islam teaches us that marriage is the finest, purest and permissible relationship that should exist between spouses.
Any illicit relationship outside marriage is considered forbidden and a grave sin.
The regret you are having shows that your heart is ready to be guided.
I would suggest that you seek repentance to Allah s.w.t for the sins you have committed and have a serious talk with the boy you intend to Marry.
Ask him to propose you officially through his parents and legalize your relationship as soon as possible. It will bring alot of ease for you physically, mentally and spiritually.
It will take self control to stay away from him after explaining him the reason, but i assure you its a possible task and you will soon feel better about your decision since you did it for the sake of Allah s.w.t. and He will definitely help you.
If the boy is serious about you, he will go out of his way to propose you despite the odds, and if not, then know that there is no true love as you claim. Always know that Allah has promised the sustenance of His bounties for those who get married. This is clearly mentioned in the Holy Quran.
True love happens only after marriage when two people have lived together under the same roof and know and understand each other well enough to sustain their relationship.
Be careful to choose your spouse with the right criteria. Read books on spouse selection in Islam. You will find a set of them in the site Al islam.org
Life before marriage is mostly an infatuation and only in the most rare cases, could turn out to be true love.
In most cases, romance and love die out very quickly when couple find themselves with the real world. The unrealistic expectation that young people have is what often contributes to the failure of their relationship.
Moreover, if you’ve thought ahead, you must be concerned of the generation you will raise and that has to have a firm foundation according to the principles of Islam, which would reap most benefits for you. A relationship out of wedlock would not enable that to happen unless one repents to Allah.
Think carefully and repent sincerely before your sins block away other blessings about to reach you, and beg to Allah for guidance. Allah’s displeasure only stops His special Mercy to reach a person.
It is wiser to talk the matter over with one of your elders without getting into past details. inshAllah they will understand and do something about it.

Regards
Salma Alavi